Posted in English, Poems, Quotes & Poems

I am drowning …..

This illogical thought,

is like illusion.

This unstoppable thinking about you,

has darkened my head with cloudiness.

Blinded me ….

How can I stop this desire?

How can I hold this ecstasy?

The crave that always be there….

Is never coming to end.

I am drowning ….. into my own fantasy.

I don’t know how much longer I can stand.

There’s something about you that I  can not fight.

It’s just like drug that I always need.

An addiction that I can not handle.

I am puzzled ….

Lost ….

Defeated ….

…. yet, unwilling to be rescued.

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Posted in English, Thought/Story

How do we know if she/he is “The One”?

The One ….. Is she/he “The One”?. I guess that all singles keep asking that question every time they meet a potential person. How can we identify that someone is or will become our “The One”? People say that love is blind, so we can not or better not rely on only our feeling when decide that someone is “The One”. But, without considering our feeling about someone, we can not say if some one is “The One”. Ideally, head and heart say the same thing when we decide that some one is “The One”. But, ideal condition is very rare to happen in this life.

One time, you meet a person who your head says “she/he is The One”, but your heart says “she/he is not”; another time, it happens the other way around. When that happens so many times, one day we could only think; “Have I made any mistake? Have I missed my “The One”?

If we asked married couples about this “The One” things questions, I am pretty sure that they will say that their wife/ husband’s of course their “The One”. But, when we ask that kind of questions to divorcees, most of them probably would say that they have made mistakes; apparently, his/her ex was not “The One”.

So, back to the original question… How can we identify that some one is our “The One”? How can we avoid to make any mistake when decide whether some one is “The One” or not? How can we be sure that you and someone are meant for each other? Many theories about that, but sometimes theories are not convincing enough :).

A weird question that suddenly pops up in my head in the middle of the night as a result of “eyes could not sleep, while the brain keeps working, this time in odd and silly way”.

Posted in English, Thought/Story

Sadly, you are not the real you!

In life, we often meet people who are not the real person as seen as they appear in front of us. People who seem nice, kind, always smile and speak good things about us, when around us. But, when they are not around us, they talk different things; worse, they are talking about what suppose to be secret that we trust them to be kept safe. How and when can we really trust other people? We have known some people for quite some times and believed that they could be trusted through some our life’s experiences together.  Somehow, over the time, they have changed, sometimes in the way that we could not believe that they could be the person that they become right now. We could not believe that they could talk that way about us; bad things that either they realize it or not, it hurts us. People change, true. I read it often, in fact, I ever wrote that before. But, when the significant changes happen to people which affect us in terrible way, it is really shocking. We do not believe it; feel that it is more like bad dreams that will go away when we wake up. Then, when we realize that it is really happening, we could only think about it sadly; sometimes amaze to see that is the real color of the person who we thought we know for long time.

That makes me thinking, are there anyone who we can really trust completely? After how long until we can see the true color of other people? How do we know that people will not talk bad things behind us or stab our back? Should we always be worry or alert every time we interact with other people? I just wondering ….

 

Posted in English, Thought/Story

It’s a woman thing !

Name one thing that most women dislike but nervously worry when it does not arrive yet? Yes, that monthly women’s special guest. The guest that comes uninvited every month and to some women give a hard time even before it arrives. It’s like saying, “I am the most important thing in your life and you have to be ready to welcome me”. Many symptoms, both physical and emotional symptoms which called a PMS  that often makes us to put a lot of things on hold as we can not get through the day when it attacks. Acne, feeling tired, trouble sleeping, upset stomach, bloating, constipation/diarrhea, headache/backache, food cravings, joint or muscle pain, trouble with concentration/memory, tension, irritability, mood swings, anxiety or depression, stomach cramps, and maybe more. Those are some problems that have to be taken by some women, if I can not say most women, every month. Some women are so lucky that never experience a PMS, but others get a serious PMS, some may never leave the bed for few days.

I guess it is true what people say that women are special, women are strong human being. Have you ever read the quote says:

” I bleed every month but do not die. How am not I magic?”.

Quite funny, but how true is that?

 

Posted in English, Thought/Story

Easy like Sunday morning …

Sunday certainly becomes the most favorite day for most people. Wake up late, lazy morning, having a breakfast at the bed with the loved one, or you can just stay in the bed for the whole day, do everything you want to do without any interruption, reading, watching old favorite movie series like Friends (remind me how old I am hehehe) accompanied by a cup of coffee and cake (Sunday is no diet day), or you can spend it on the pool getting on the sun-tan like someone does today at our building pool on the 10th floor, then continue to have an easy – slowly day till end of day. Yes, Sunday is the best day between all the seven days, that is why people creates that words “Easy like Sunday Morning”.

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My best favorite time on the easy Sunday is in the night. As I live in the building which integrated with mall on the below, my area is always crowded and noisy, everyday. Night is not always quiet as I can still hear the traffic noise from my 30s floor. Well…Jakarta is never sleep, that’s what people say. Still Sunday is better day. Less people go to the mall, less traffic, less noise. And in the end of the day, on the easy Sunday, when most people are already being at their home, mall’s closed, then I will have a quiet, peaceful and relaxing night.

Have an easy Sunday, everyone!

Posted in Bali, English, Reviews, Spa/Beauty Treatments, Travel

Cosmo Salon & Spa, Bali

I came to this place with special purpose to get shiatsu massage. I was not feeling well, pain on my lower back, shoulder and neck got stiff after sitting for quite long time and I guess not in the right position when driving around in Bali. I thought that regular massage would not fix my problem, and been thinking about shiatsu. I like getting shiatsu massage, especially when I feel like catching flu or have back pain. That normally works well on me.

So, I did google about shiatsu in Bali and came up with several places, one of them was Cosmo Salon & Spa. This place is still in Sanur area. They provide massage and spa treatments, nail and waxing treatments, hair treatments and make up. There are several types of massages in this Cosmo Salon: Cosmo Fusion massage, Cosmo Signature, Deep Tissue massage, Shiatsu, Bali massage & Thai massage (you can read the detail technique of each massage on their website, includes the price). I read on Tripadvisor about this place and many people were recommending Cosmo Fusion massage. It is combination between deep tissue massage and shiatsu, but I wanted shiatsu.  Unlike shiatsu that I used to get in Jakarta, which use feet pressure technique, the therapists here are using finger pressure technique. This therapy also involved kneading, pressing, soothing, tapping, and stretching techniques, performed without oils through light, comfortable clothing that they provided. I think the shiatsu technique at this Cosmo Salon is better than the one I get in Jakarta. One hour of this massage was relieved my back pain, not entirely right away but I felt much much better. Maybe I need more than one hour to heal the pain completely :). I was thinking about that on my way back home.

 

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Note about this place:

  • Most guests are foreigners.
  • Friendly staffs especially the receptionist.
  • The place is clean.
  • The price is a little bit higher than Leha-Leha Spa, but it is still within market range and based on my own experience it is more than worth to get the shiatsu massage here.
  • Over all: good services with reasonable price.

Detail Info:

Cosmo Salon & Spa

Danau Tamblingan Street No.176, Sanur, Bali

Telp: (62-361) 286330

Website: http://www.cosmobali.com

Posted in English, Thought/Story

Crying…? Why not?

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One time, long time ago, there was someone said to me that as a person I am too sensitive, that was because I shed tear easily. And I admitted it. I was, and I am still now. I am sensitive person, I may be a highly sensitive person. I remember when I was kid, every time I watched sad movie on the television with my younger sisters and parents; I was the only one who cried. And my sister would make fun of me for being cry over fiction on the television. Every time ….even when the movie was a silly, ridiculous and no make sense, I would still cry over sad scene. That’s why I did not like watching television. I was more into books, novels and magazine. And I love reading novel series most. When I like certain novel series, I would borrow each seri from library as many as possible and read them till finish. Sometimes after school, I just stayed in my room reading them, forgot about anything else; time, food and even bath lol…. I would move only by something that needed immediate or urgent attention, like a pee :). And If that was a sad novel, I would cry all the time I read it. The next morning, I would get puffy, swollen eyes that were not easy to cover up. Well… I have not been introduced with any make up, so it was not easy to hide it.

When I grown up as of an adult person, I thought that I will be less sensitive. But, no, it is not. Once I went to watch a movie with my 9 years old niece; a cartoon movie with title “a Little Mermaid”. After movie finished and we went out of the movie studio, she said, “were you crying? Your nose and eyes went red” … I could not lie, the evidence was there… I said yes, then we laughed together hahaha. There is another movie that really moved me, called “Life is Beautiful” with Guido as main character played by Roberto Benigni. It supposed to be a comedy-drama movie. But, again when there is a “drama”, I could never be able to hold back my tears. When I watched it for the first time, I was started to cry from the beginning of the movie was played, and my tears were not stopped till it finished. I was emotionally drowning between the sad – grief – heartbroken feeling as of why life is so cruel to them, and amused by the way Guido sees the biggest tragedy that hit his family and how he translates the tragedy and life bitterness into humor, to comfort his little son. That is really great movie about life, love and humor. I watch it many times, and still cry over it.

Yes, I admit it that I am still emotionally easy to move, even now. I think that is the way I understand other people sadness, feeling sympathy and a response as “I feel you”. I may never be less sensitive ever, but hey …. I am human; human has a feeling and I just express the feeling, sometimes loudly:). One thing I know that crying is good; it releases stress hormones and other toxins, the best mechanism to self-soothe and helps to ease pain. So crying …why not?